Eternally missed

i don’t even know if that was real or i’m going insane. i woke up in the same white room… sitting on the couch and trying to remember something about my past was hard. i had a double life. it’s called madness. I feel like someone else has taken over my brain : find myself driving around aimlessly not remembering where i am going, losing things constantly, and just feeling like in my head is  a fog. i feel like i have absolutely lost my mind.

Show us your real side,you fuckin’ liar!

Shut up, you don’t know how it hurts, and I can’t take this anymore, I’m going crazy.

What I can’t understand? The fact that I’m here, trying to escape from this prison of lies?

Please…my thoughts are hurting me over and over again…my hands are blue and I’m shaking. In this moment I just want a cigarette and a pillow .I can’t control you, and I’m too weak now.

You are pathetic.

But sometimes I feel like the sun forgives me and he shows me the clouds… It seemed a place for us to dream….explosions in the sky.

You are nothing. Something better? Can you show me another one?

I just  need some coffee with  sugar.

You are sick.

I am…you and you are me.and we always paint the walls of my mind, all morning.